长大

时间流逝得真快

一转眼又一年

长大似乎已是事实

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童年时候的天真无邪

吵吵闹闹的日子

无忧无虑的时刻

撒娇坏蛋的童年

一一都成了过去

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我们。。。

总期望着长大

期待着长大的自由

对长大有着无限的幻想

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我们都长大了

彼此都忙碌着

长大似乎没有我们想象的有趣

我们似乎都忘了。。

童年时候的天真

童年时候的承诺

你我曾经的‘山盟海誓’

现在都被工作，金钱，明利。。埋没了

原来我们都‘长大’了

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a slow, down day... 221208

today im actually having quite a bad mood.. i juz TRY not to believe that bad things will keep happened one after another... but the truth is.. YEAH.. it happened tht way!! i was trying my best to control my emotions... until my lovely golden mouse DIED!!! aiksss.....

in this moment.. i actually feel sort of tired... in term of physical and emotional... whenever i feel upset.. i will thought of my mum.. i missed (missing) my mum tht always pamper me.. i dun mind actually if people called me as mummy gal.. cz i think i am.. and im proud to be a mummy gal...

working thingy is sucks.. it juz dun go the way i wanted it to be... OKAY!!! i will try again... bad people always there, we juzt cant do much.. how to get rid of it..? one day God will punish them... ahahaha... ( i dunno wats so funny, but thts the only way i feel better).. spoken to a colleague of mine... she was juz so amaze tht everytime i talked to her, i will eventually feel so much better.. she teach me something today.. something tht i might know but never use.. " its not up to me to comment.. i will juz follow the management decision..." it does mean.. when we r in a level tht is not high enough, watever ur boss say.. u will juz have to say "YES BOSS" or... " yeah.. i think its a good idea..." or..."sure, no problem, i can do it..."

relationship wise.. not going to well.. hmm... quite often of arguement.. perhaps when we are dating and when we are staying together. its totally different story.. u will juz see things clearer.. sometimes it seems not a bad thing if we r blur... (i guess u agree with me).. perhaps sometimes if we r not stick to each other everyday, it will be a good stuff too... hehhe.. well, i dun mean to be devil or something, its juz tht the space seems to be much more limited now.. and soemtimes.. i feel the chemical effect sort of getting lesser and lesser... (or .. i think too much ?? @_@ ) oh well, my man is still the best man (after my dad).. and well... i still love him.. its juz tht .. i guess something needs to work out soon...

christmas is around the corner.. me myself self declared tht i will have a longer holiday... i mean.. a longer...extra one day...only!!! this year i dun really feel the excitement.. cz.. i dun have any plan... this year.. no trip, no travel, no surprise... aiks... pethatic.. i somehow feel im quite pity... hehehe.. anyhow.. this is a day i like the most.. i mean.. its such a romantic day, its such a happening festive... exchanging gift, christmas treee, decorations...WOW!!!!! yes, im loving it~

k la.. stop here.. stephanie... cut the C.R.A.P.... ahahaha...

merry christmas~

cheers

041208- boring thursday

present...

my present life is like.. sometimes its so wonderful.. sometimes im lost...

i do not know how to describe.. perhaps human are alwayy hardly satisfy with what they are having.. guess i m juz one of those.. i does not say tht im not happy with what i have... in fact im more than happy.. its jz.. sometimes.. too good to be true...

im having a 'kinda' stable job... managing a branch here as a branch head.. having challenging job, as im 'fighting' with so many 'bad guys' out there.. anyhow.. thts life.. challenging!! then i have a considerate bf.. (no doubt sometimes he is not), who is mature, caring, capable, a good fren of mine and also a good listener of mine too.. we always have lots of topics.. then i have a good family, parents tht sayang me a lot.. bro and sis that is great together...

well.. it seems i have nth to worry bout in my life.. good family, good job, and of coZ i have some great frens too...but when people ask me.. what is my goal.. i seems do not have an answer for it.. errr... looking for something better? (not trying to show off) but.. look.. wat else better that i can have..?

i have never facing anything tht i couldnt do... i mean.. practically... i swear... im really thinking very hard for it.. i swear.. one day.. i will have my goal... well.. frens out there.. wats ur goal..? share with me if u dun mind..

cheers~

Introduction

the 1st blog again... after so long...
well... today whenever i go.. something juz pop into my mind...
we used to think in these way:-

1. how nice if i never do this/that...
2. how nice if time could turn back...
3. what if im doing this/that...

this kind of question used to pop into our mind...well.. i cant deny.. i used to be one of those who like to think in that way.. and of coz until today... im still thinking in that way.. i think i am getting worse.. coz i even feel like how nice if there is no one out there know who am i ... and that is why i would like to name my blog as no name... but... the name is unavalable...

in the past, i have done alot of so called 'silly' stuff... i did things that most youngsters will do.. (oh well, im still young of coz)... like wat..?? err... as in.. we go clubbing, we try things that we 'think' we should do when we r young... we go flirt around, we do things that parents worry bout... we go and know some bad frens... we 'copy cat' when exam time.. oh yeah..lots more.. but of coz not to the extend that i betray myself... hehehe....

oh well... sometimes... we thought that we are young, and we have lots more time to be wasted.. and that is why we did a lot of stupid thing when we are young... a lots of things that we have done last time... until now... i mean PRESENT.. we feel regret and we again... will think... how nice if last time i never did that... how nice if time could turn back, i will never did that again...or what if i am not doing that last time...things like that... im pretty sure most of us do think in this way... include me...if i would be given a chance.... i wish :-

1. i will never hurt my frens
2. i will still keep in good contact with babe
3. i will never neglect meen
4. i never hurt my lou gong zai
5. i can do better in my exam
6. i can do better in my final year
7. i will not go clubbing
8. i will not get drunk
lots more carry on....

but the funny thing is.. time will never turn back for us.. we can never b back to the same situation and says.. i will never do this again... or who know even if this happened, i bet 99.99% of us will still repeat the same mistake....

so the conclusion is... we will never be able to forget or erase or delete all ur past memory.. but of coz ... we have present and future for us to carry on...

i have no idea what do i want to put in yet... well... to be continue...