today im actually having quite a bad mood.. i juz TRY not to believe that bad things will keep happened one after another... but the truth is.. YEAH.. it happened tht way!! i was trying my best to control my emotions... until my lovely golden mouse DIED!!! aiksss.....
in this moment.. i actually feel sort of tired... in term of physical and emotional... whenever i feel upset.. i will thought of my mum.. i missed (missing) my mum tht always pamper me.. i dun mind actually if people called me as mummy gal.. cz i think i am.. and im proud to be a mummy gal...
working thingy is sucks.. it juz dun go the way i wanted it to be... OKAY!!! i will try again... bad people always there, we juzt cant do much.. how to get rid of it..? one day God will punish them... ahahaha... ( i dunno wats so funny, but thts the only way i feel better).. spoken to a colleague of mine... she was juz so amaze tht everytime i talked to her, i will eventually feel so much better.. she teach me something today.. something tht i might know but never use.. " its not up to me to comment.. i will juz follow the management decision..." it does mean.. when we r in a level tht is not high enough, watever ur boss say.. u will juz have to say "YES BOSS" or... " yeah.. i think its a good idea..." or..."sure, no problem, i can do it..."
relationship wise.. not going to well.. hmm... quite often of arguement.. perhaps when we are dating and when we are staying together. its totally different story.. u will juz see things clearer.. sometimes it seems not a bad thing if we r blur... (i guess u agree with me).. perhaps sometimes if we r not stick to each other everyday, it will be a good stuff too... hehhe.. well, i dun mean to be devil or something, its juz tht the space seems to be much more limited now.. and soemtimes.. i feel the chemical effect sort of getting lesser and lesser... (or .. i think too much ?? @_@ ) oh well, my man is still the best man (after my dad).. and well... i still love him.. its juz tht .. i guess something needs to work out soon...
christmas is around the corner.. me myself self declared tht i will have a longer holiday... i mean.. a longer...extra one day...only!!! this year i dun really feel the excitement.. cz.. i dun have any plan... this year.. no trip, no travel, no surprise... aiks... pethatic.. i somehow feel im quite pity... hehehe.. anyhow.. this is a day i like the most.. i mean.. its such a romantic day, its such a happening festive... exchanging gift, christmas treee, decorations...WOW!!!!! yes, im loving it~
k la.. stop here.. stephanie... cut the C.R.A.P.... ahahaha...
merry christmas~
cheers
