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i was feeling something not right since the moment i woke up this morning.. perhaps it was a symptom to inform me.. hey, something might not be running too well for the day, so be prepared ya..of coz.. i was juz telling myself, i had too much of durian, which makes me blur for the day...anyhow.. my mood doesnt goes too good, but im juz trying to carry on my task for the day..

i've been travelling around the town today, to do wat im suppose to do... no excitement... no emotional... its a flat tone day basically.. but its really weird tht.. i juz couldnt cheer myself up.. to a level tht.. i dun feel like talking, walking, smiling.. and of coz working..

like a fren of mine said.. 'u muz be feeling depress because of ur work again'.. i was wanted to tell him, ya.. 50% out of it maybe.. then i think..well, i guess so 100% of it... then my fren asked me, 'i thought u r already immune about it'.. well, i wanted to say, i think so.. but then i suddenly feel, perhaps im really tired or im already exhausted..

i've finally received my exam paper result, well, the very 1st time, i failed in exam.. i failed.. when i saw my result, i was sitting outside the house, looking at nth, blur.. dunno wat was my feeling, perhaps.. it was painful for me.. someone who has never fail in any exam.. or perhaps.. this is the consequences of wat i have done..aiks... sigh... *sob*

stephanie poon siew fong... God bless u...

perhaps in this moment, i really need someone to show me the direction.. perhaps in this moment, i really need God to be there and bless me...